Him

I give up ,

I lost myself ,

I dont know who i am now ,

I started to be someone new ,

I start to act like a new matured person ,

I hate that . 

But how strong it is to fight the love we had .

I started to find a reason to be the old me .

You came . Yes you did .

But u came just to make me realize that i deserve someone better ,

I deserve to be who i am in my past ,

I deserve to be take care of not to take care of someone else .

I deserve to be fight for ,

I deserve someone who willing to give effort ,

You came just to open my eyes ,

I know i cant have u back ,

Youre just my past , but love remain .

At the time i give up in love , 

and decide to not fall in love too deep anymore ,

that is the time u show up .

You came and offer me happiness ,

You came with your precious smile ,

A smile that can make forget every problem i have ,

Yes you , u have the most beautiful smile ever .

Its not all about your smile ,

The way u talk ,

The way u walk ,

The way u act ,

The way u treat me ,

The way you mad ,

The way you make joke ,

The way you jealous , 

The way u show that u like me ,

The way you make joke over something serious ,

Everything about you attract me .

I wasnt expect to meet u ,

I dint expect to get to know u ,

I dint planned to fall for you ,

Everything happen by its own .

Its like you have some kind of magnet force that keep pulling me close ,

Its like i have no control over myself ,

Yes , i fell in love once again . 

He's not an angel , a devil i suppose .

But in some way he manage to win my heart .

There's nothing i would ask for beside praying to keep this relationship stay long :)

Amin..